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Kevinperson IV - Active Werewolf
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| er56g |
[07 Sep 2009|01:27am] |
hello livejournal. i haven't thought of you in a long time, well,.,no,.,that isn't entirely true. i HAVE thought of you every so often, but haven't really thought of anything i wanted to say. to type. to think. though a lot has happened since the last time we met, i guess there really isn't a need to document it all. nooope. it's just weird. you write in here because you'd like to think someone will read it...which will validate your existence, yet.,.,you don't want to cater to that. you don't want to write to an audience because then it is obviously contrived. woooooooooooooooooooo. haoopy olopo!
anyway. hello.
it's labor day weekend. i'm at home. darren is away. and since i technically don't have a job, tomorrow really isn't much of a holiday. don't know what i'm going to do. or what i should be doing. hmmmm. not much has changed though, has it?
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| hy im a good Iead guitar pIayer |
[23 Jan 2009|07:31pm] |
A couple of years ago, I was briefly in a band that was looking for a 2nd guitar player. We had just recorded a song called The Killing of Satan, and was using that as a demo to try out new people. We got many emails from the ad we posted on Craiglist, but this one was the only one I kept, for obvious reasons. I just stumbled upon it tonight and felt it would be a crime not to share it's brilliance with others.
hy im a good Iead guitar pIayer /and rythm.im in south phIIiy I HAVE PRO geir my name is mario im 45 but Iook 30. fee ike im 18 .IM IN TO KiIIing satan him seIf.with my guitar.im aIIso in to hevey stuf to origenaIs .im very creative and comited to what i do.
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[03 Nov 2008|02:44pm] |
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Ah well, this is a silly entry. I just wanted to simply state that the song "Everybody" from Madonna is really fantastic. Like, if I actually danced and shit, I'd dance to this. But I don't dance, so instead I'll pretend that she's singing to the song to me and that she wants to make out with me. Well, Madonna 25 years ago, not the Madonna of today; I don't think I could handle it. Too many muscles.
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[18 Oct 2008|10:08pm] |
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strange. how people who were briefly in your life vanish, and how after many years you suddenly remember them, and wonder why they left. that just happened to me now. but then again, it happens often. i have always never cared to say good bye, but i am always thankful of the people that come and go during my life's weird adventure. and for a moment i thought of a lost acquaintance and wonder if they, in turn, ever think of me.
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[06 Oct 2008|11:06pm] |
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i probably shouldn't go out to buy mac & cheese and eat it at 11 PM, right? that just isn't a good idea.
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| cat |
[22 Sep 2008|10:42pm] |
Jesus Christ...that fucking cat is killing me. i haven't laughed so hard since i don't know when....
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[20 Aug 2008|08:43am] |
is it ever possible for me to play a gig and not miss a single note? highly unlikely! tonight's show was just silly. i don't know. it went by too quickly, but then.,.they always do. but it was nice seeing some old friends...two of them. actually. pretty weird. my bass had an unusual tone. must be the new strings????? eeeeeeeh. yeah. i am probably one of the few who actually plays better with my eyes closed.
soon after the show was ever, the gang moved to the bar. sweaty and stinky, i figured i'd join. after finding my corner to hide in, i looked around and said to myself that it all blows. so i sneaked out of there without even saying good bye. the cab ride home was $12.,.,but worth it. the night air was refreshing, the cab driver's insane foreign language was soothing, and the seats....my god...the seats in cabs are always magically comfortable.
it was nice sneaking out.,.,being the classic introvert that i am.,.,hanging out at bars always seems so uncomfortable. hmmm. yerah. magic missile. tomorrow i go to Baltimore.
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| god it's good to be alive |
[12 Aug 2008|03:23pm] |
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Funny how songs can remind us of specific things. Has anyone figured out how/why scents & sounds remind us of certain things? Hmmmm. This song, I completely recall zooming down the NJ Turnpike with my speakers screaming. It's a neat memory. Memories are grand, aren't they?
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| This just in from the WTF department |
[04 Jul 2008|10:42am] |
Okay, not only does this video have 23 keyboard players...but he's playing his bass upside down AND he's wearing a Bauhaus shirt!!!!!!!!!
Oh..and Matt Dillon shows up, looking sad at some hot 80's chick.
WTF!!!!!!?!?!?!??
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[29 Jun 2008|08:00pm] |
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I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me, but I seem to be quite...err...obsessed with ordering pizza from Papa John's web site. Perhaps it is simply the fact that it is so easy. I don't have to call, or talk to anyone, or give them money. I just click a few links on their web site and within 5 minutes or less I'm done. It sooooo fucking easy...it's making me crazy! I order pizza now even though I'm no hungry! Or even want the god damn pizza! I'm just so impressed and in love with the ordering process...I'm hooked! HELP! Aaaaaaaagh! Pizza...eating my....brains...damn you...garlic dipping sauce!!!!!!!!!
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[29 Jun 2008|07:51pm] |
i had thought that i was going to pick up my new and exciting paxil pills today, but i sure didn't. maybe tomorrow? ehhh. what was once enthusiasm has turned to hesitation. against my initial will, i went online and did some research on this Paxil business. i knew there would be side effect, and i guess i told myself not to worry about it. But now, of course, worry is all that i do.
the number one side effect appears to be sexual dysfunction. it's a charming one to: what better way to heal a man's mental state! make him impotent! we'll see. it's a valid concern, i think.
one of the questions i should have asked while i was nervously answering questions the psychiatrist asked me was "how long will i have to be on this drug?". it never occurred to me that this could be a short term thing - i just assumed it was a forever sorta gig. how does that work? the pills fix all the spider webs in your mind and then you can stop taking them and be alright again? or something like that? from what i've seen from my friends is once they are on a drug that they feel is "working", they stick with it, and take it every day. ugh. i dunno. i didn't like being on Prozac 15 years ago, i'm not so sure i feel comfortable with being on mental pills again. we'll see.
if anyone reads my journals, i'll probably be talking about this a lot now, so i apologize in advance for the..ehh...redundancy.
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[28 Jun 2008|08:10pm] |
i finally did it. saw a psychiatrist this afternoon, and though i felt incredibly rushed and nervous, i guess it all went well.
to sum it up: he wrote me a prescription of 10 milligrams of Paxil.
so let's see what happens next.
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| who's making love |
[21 Jun 2008|09:58pm] |
i don't know if it's me (though it probably was), but it's bad when you see relatives for the first time in several months and they are like strangers to you.
my usual social-anxiety-self was doing it's best to keep me within my house's warm, protective embrace this afternoon, but knowing that i had to do the right thing, i went out anyway. to see some folks from my mother's side of the family. pretty much the only family i have left, other than my dad & step mom. family is such a weird thing to me. i'm not even sure i fully understand what it means. to say i've grown up in a 'dysfunctional' family doesn't seem like too much of an exaggeration.
and i felt like the weirdo as usual tonight. my cousin was there with her two (pretty damn cute) children; she's a few years younger than me.,.and there i was...typical black jeans and dark blue JAWS t-shirt. trying not to feel like a total loser when they ask me about my life, loves, and career. i guess it's pretty much small talk; i could have said that i'm gay, work in a circus and collect cow shit and they would have just smiled. or something like that.
anyway, i really shouldn't make it sound so melodramatic. it was nice a time. ate more food in two hours than i have all month. i should try harder to be apart of this family, because within a few years time there won't be many of them left.
i think i found out that my one aunt smokes pot.
and there you go.
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[20 Jun 2008|02:47pm] |
oooooooooooooooooooo.
let's seeeeeeeeeee. hillo. today is friday. mmmmm. it's a typical day, nothing ever really changes. hmmm. i do know some interesting news - at the end of them month i'm (finally) going to see a doctor for MENTAL EVALUATION! wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. can't can you believe that craps? wow, how wacky. soo o so i am quite interested to see what this motherfucker does to me. put me in a nice little category.
"you sir, are ___________ _ _____. Now take this pill once a day and learn how to live!" wee sheeeeeeee. i'm excited, and possibly scared. what will this do to me? idon'tknow. i've been told that i am a classic introvert. neat. i guess so? right?
just want to dig deeper deeper deeper into the earth, smile at the accidents in my life, and let everyone eventually forget i was ever around. hooooo hum. fighting fight fight. shut up!!!!!!!!
i got invited to be in another band. play bass and sing. neat. we'll see? two basses! that would be odd. how?
alright. scream for me long beach.
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[11 Jun 2008|10:05am] |
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I just have to proclaim that I simply love Thin Lizzy. I'm at my dreary day job right now and I'm blasting "Live and Dangerous" in my already tinnitus suffering ears. Whenever the song "I'm still in love with you" comes on, i have to increase the volume so that this song completely engulfs me, and it's all that i hear. gaaaaaaaaaaaah. yeup. amazing soulful vocals and blistering powerful guitar solos. it's just a good testament as to how the simple things in life can give you inspiration. hmmm. yeah.
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| Getting Dumped |
[16 May 2008|06:25am] |
Man, it just doesn't change, does it? And Poetic Justice sucks!
Today is my birthday, I shouldn't dwell.
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| pop |
[10 Apr 2008|08:36am] |
hmm. well, pop music has gotten the best of me again. either i am getting older, insane, or both? probably both.
it's the fucking chorus...it's pretty damn good. i can't help it. even if the drums are fake, it's still a cool pop song. i'm insane. yup.
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[28 Mar 2008|10:59pm] |
it's just about 11 pm.,.i'm way too tired than i should should be.,.and my face feels terribly tight. it's that sort of feeling where your head is 20 pounds heavier than normal. more of less. today did seem like it was very long.
what a thrill it is, the way life continues to be utterly unpredictable. madness. constantly. just as long as it stays on the up & up, , , i guess that's all that really matters. today the website only had three sales, but one of them was $200. nuts. nuts. salty.
last night i bought a couple of cds at the very exciting used record shop on chestnut street. chris likes to stop there at least once a month. usually i don't buy anything.,.,but fortunately this time i put that pattern away.,.,put it on a boat, and shipped it out to sea.
The Jackson 5 - 18 Greatest Hits. I've had several Jackson 5 records on cassette.,.,but now.,.thanks to the wonders of technology, i have this on cd. not a very impressive collection, but it has "I Want You Back", which undoubtedly has to be one of the most amazing achievements created by man. never gets old. never gets boring. and fucking michael jackson's heavenly voice just kills me every time.
The Slits - Cut one sunday, while becky and i were coming home from wildwood, she played this album on her ipod. while not entirely impressed the first time i heard it.,.,it stuck...and stuck in my spidery head. lucky for me i remembered that i wanted to listen to it again.,.,......and sure enough, it was there. a good record. very primal, sincere.,.,.mixing a raw punk reggae sound that the Bad Brains would be proud of.
Dwarves - Blood, Guts, and Pussy another classic. my cassette tape is almost dust after nearly 18 years of use. one of my minor accomplishments while being a dj at my college was playing their song "Fuck you up and get high" with out getting caught by the FCC monitors. hmm. yeah.
Feist - Let it Die This was sorta impulse.,.,after really enjoying her voice on a couple of Broken Social Scene songs, i figured i'd give her solo work a shot. hhhhhhhhhhh. i am absolutely loving this album far more than i ever anticipated. initially i felt her tiny voice was annoying because she barely enunciates her words...but now i know that was premature. hmm. yeah. i kinda imagine this is what late 20's early 30's folks would consider the new adult contemporary...or something like that. whatever it is, it is very nice. i think the CD is already on it's fourth rotation tonight.
Fantomas - Fantomas fucking mike patton and dave lombardo. total insane metal, noise, experimental, blitzkrieg madness. this is the kind of music that makes dancing question marks float above my head....which is always a thrill. makes me jealous.
Thin Lizzy - Johnny the Fox one day i'll have every single Thin Lizzy release. i probably only have 4 records so far. i'll get them all. eventually. Phil Lynott's always passionate vocals and intellectual lyrics sound like pure poetry over the never ending mix of melodic rock and roll songs. the real gem on this album is "Don't Believe a Word"
Don't believe me if I tell you
Not a word of this is true
Don't believe me if I tell you
Especially if I tell you I'm in love with you
Don't believe me if I tell you
That I wrote this song for you
There just might be some other silly pretty girl
I'm singing to
Don't believe a word
For words are so easily spoken
And your heart is just like that promise
Made to be broken
Don't believe a word
'Cause words can tell lies
And lies are no comforting
When there's tears in your eyes
Don't believe me if I tell you
Not a word of this is true
Don't believe me if I tell you
Especially if I tell you that I'm in love with you
Don't believe a word
Well.
yeah.
i guess i'll just pass out soon.
hopefully tomorrow my gig in Atlantic City will be fun and not too life threatening. I'm excited to play live again, and show folks just how much of a god damn amazing bass player i really am.
yeah. sure.
ehhh. cat pee!
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